24 April 2011

watch out people!

i got this story from one of my friend's blog.

A well known family in Mequon lost their 25 years old son (Arun Gopal Ratnam) in a fire at home June 4th. This is what happened. He graduated with MBA from University of Wisconsin-Madison two weeks earlier and came home. Had a lunch with his dad at home and decided to go back and clean up his room at school. Father told him to wait and see his mother before he goes back for a few days. He decided to take a nap while waiting for his mom to come home from work. Neighbours called 911 when they saw black smoke coming out of the house. Their 25 years old son, Arun, died in the three years old house. It took several days of investigations to find out the cause of fire. It was determined that the fire was caused by laptop in the bed. When the laptop is on the bed, cooling fan does not get air to cool the computer and that is what caused the fire. He didn't even wake up to get out of the bed, he died of carbon monoxide.

by the way i usually put my laptop on bed but now ill think twice if i wanna put it there...

kenapa?

tuhan..
kenapa aku harus kenal dia
kenapa ada begitu banyak kenangan yang indah banget sama dia
kenapa aku harus boongin diri aku sendiri kalo aku masih
kenapa aku harus boongin dia kalo aku juga masih
kenapa ngelupain seseorang itu sulit banget
kenapa dia ga pernah ngerasa capek
kenapa harus ada kata-kata "coba"

kalau aja aku ga kenal dia
ga ada kenangan-kenangan indah sama dia
aku ga perlu boongin diri aku sendiri
ga perlu boongin dia
ga perlu sulit-sulit ngelupain orang
dan ga perlu mikirin kenapa semua hal itu terjadi

"kalau dibilang sayang engga...kalau dibilang ga sayang juga engga"

i love you nya chris browN, sempurna nya andra, need you know nya lady antebellum. kaya udah jadi saksi kalo gue sm dia punya kenangan yang indah bgt dulu. kalo gue tuh emang sayang sama org yang gue anggep sempurna itu dan gue ngebutuhin dia. everytime i heard that song, its like i cant hold my tears anymore. pgn nangis sejadi2nya ampe puas.

dia pgn semuanya balik kayak dulu lagi. hati gue bilang "iya mau bgt" tapi sampe mulut yg ada malah "gue gabisa". pertanyaan gue, kenapa sih hrs boongin diri sendiri? tapi emang gue ada keinginan pas gue gede nanti. gue ga mau keinginan gue sm ortu gue ga terwujud nanti. sumpah2 gue pengen banget itu. tapi disisi lain gue sayang sm dia...shud i spent my teenage with this shit? thinking over and all over again about this..nimbang sana nimbang sini. apa emg pantes kaya gini. apa emang gue harus kaya gini. katanya gue harus ikutin kata hati. i did. i've tried. tapi ga sreg bgt. apa iya hati ga selalu bener? makanya gue jd ga sreg gini?

ga ada yang dukung utk ngelupain kenangan2 itu. ga ada. bener-bener ga ada. lula devta fianna rika ajeng catel dina. mrka malah suruh gue bikin kenangan2 itu semakin indah. semakin indah semakin susah dilupain. emg kenangan ga utk dilupain tapi utk dipelajarin. tapi...nothings wrong. ga ada yg harus dipelajarin dari kenangan itu. bener2 indah bgt sampe ga ada cacatnya.

so far..songs that fits my current heart situation is slank's. heres the lyrics.

Terlalu Manis
Kuambil gitar dan mulai kumainkan
Lagu lama yang biasa kita nyanyikan
Tapi tak sepatah kata yang bisa terucap
Hanya ingatan yang ada di kepala
Hari berganti angin tetap berhembus
Cuaca berubah daun-daun tetap tumbuh
Kata hatikupun tak pernah berubah
Berjalan dengan apa adanya
Di malam yang dingin dan gelap sepi
Benakku melayang pada kisah kita
Terlalu manis untuk dilupakan
Kenangan yang indah bersamamu tinggalah mimpi
Terlalu manis untuk dilupakan
Kalau memang kita tak saling takkan terjadi diantara kita

Ku Tak Bisa
Pernah berpikir 'tuk pergi
Dan terlintas tinggalkan kau sendiri
Sempat ingin sudahi sampai di sini
Coba lari dari kenyataan
Tapi ku tak bisa jauh jauh darimu
Ku tak bisa jauh jauh darimu
Lalu mau apa lagi
Kalau kita sudah gak saling mengerti
Sampai kapan bertahan seperti ini
Dua hati bercampur emosi
Tapi ku tak bisa jauh jauh darimu
Ku tak bisa jauh jauh darimu
Sabar sabar aku coba sadar
Sadar sadar seharusnya kita sadar
Kau dan aku tercipta
Gak boleh terpisah
Dan tak bisa jauh jauh darimu
Ku tak bisa jauh jauh darimu

30 Oktober 2010

broke up

sad.
it's just a simple word
but full of meaning
that word has really described my feeling right now.

yea, i just broke up with wizli pratama. a boy who really makes me know what the real meaning of love. thanks for makes my days brighter, thanks for makes me know that losing someone is not that easy, and thanks for everything didi. :D

and maybe this will be my last post that labeled 'Wzl'

23 Oktober 2010

miss sasabun

BOO! It'a been a long time not posting anything here.

I really miss this page. But really, everytime I see this page, there's a lot of things that I want to share, but after I click New Post, it's like all gone. Or when I want to post about him, after I think twiced, it's like "noo, it's too private to share on this page", so I decided to sign out from here.

Mmm.. By the way some minutes ago, I wanted to post about my high school friends but then a few minutes later I think there's nothing to share about em. So.. G☺☺D BYE!! see u next post ;)

15 Agustus 2010

troubleS

Like what I've said, welcome new trouble!!

Ternyata sma ga kaya yang gue pikirin, ga seenak yang ada di otak gue, dan pastinya ga seenak smp. Banyak banget masalah dateng ga selesai-selesai dan ga kenal waktu. Masalah sama keluarga, adaptasi di sma, pacar juga. Meskipun cuma masalah kecil dan sepele, bisa jadi masalah besar trus malah ribet banget. Di sekolah banyak tugas, belom lagi matematika gue jeblok banget, Gimana ga jenuh? Gue juga manusia, gue bisa stress sm masalah yg ga berenti gini. Mungkin gue sekarang sensian banget, dikit-dikit bete, apa-apa bete. Sekarang gue mau cerita juga ke siapa? Mereka juga punya masalah masing-masing, kalo gue cerita ke mereka yg ada mereka tambah males udah banyak masalah malah ditambah-tambahin, nyelesain masalah sendiri aja belom tentu bisa ini gue malah minta saran, mending gue diem kan. Sama wizli juga gue gaenak sama dia, gue ngerasa bersalah banget, kalo lagi ngobrol sama dia juga gue dikit-dikit bete, ada aja yg bikin bete yang ujung-ujungnya berantem. Serius ya gue capek sama masalah yg ga berenti-berenti ini, capek tau ga. Terserah lo kalo emg gabisa ngerti, tapi later or sooner lo bakal ngerasain di posisi gue, di posisi yang paling bikin lo ngerasa bersalah sama semua org karna sifat lo.

9 Juli 2010

SeniorHighSchool

34 2013 !! ;D

Yaaayy keterima di 34, satu sekolah sama Nurul Devta dooong. Kurang jodoh apa lg gue sama devta, di 68 dari kelas 7 sampe 9 sekelas terus.. Trus sekarang sma satu sekolah wkwk semoga satu kls lagi ya dev... -_- Tapi ga satu sekolah sama Wizli >:( Wizli keterimanya di 66, satu sekolah deh dia sm Hasya huhu, jagain ya sya! Kalo macem-macem bilang gue! Wkwkwk :P

Pisah sama beldi, pisah sama wizli juga. It's suppppaaa hard. Beldi jangan pada sombong yaaa, trus juga jangan pada rusak, jaga pergaulan hahaha. Trus wizli juga, jgn sombong jadi anak bango :P hahaha jgn nakal ya wiz trus nih dari twitter rafif, "yg udah jadian anak @franovezXLII ttp langgeng biar pisah sekolah. yg cowo jgn nyari kk BE ER mulu", tuh wizz baca hahaha.

Oh ya, 74 ada Lula, 34 ada gue Devta Nurul, 46 ada Sarah Wirda Kania, 70 ada Rina, 6 ada Ajeng Fianna. Misah-misah bgt ya huhu tapi yang paling byk 34 sama 46 dong!!! :P hahaha

Senior High School.. New life, new school, new friends, new stuff, and new trouble. Welcome :D